My B-Day is in a few day

My b-day is in a few days and am having a nice party. My wife and i rented out a bar and i am having a poker game. I am looking forward to it well really i can’t wait. There is a song by Tim McGraw that if he know me i would have thought it was wrote about me lol. I have more then i could every ask for and more then i should have. I am really not one that shows or tells people how i feel i can put a song or 2 on and make myself feel better with out have to put my problems on to other people so thats what i do there are so many song that i can relate to and i am sure this is true with most people. Back to my B-day is it wrong for me to want stuff when i don’t have a job i see people around me getting what they want or need and they don’t have the money for it and it shows up. I guess i might be a little bit jealous but i don’t really want to use that word because it makes me happy also when they get what they need or want so i don’t really know what i want to say or how to describe how it makes me feel maybe left out lol. I don’t know i am very happy with my life so ar and i don’t see any reason why i would not be in the next 50 years if i live that long lol. I don’t know i guess all i can say about how i feel is I guess thats just the cowboy in me and thats i am only human.